100% Hate.

That’s all.

I hate him more than anything in the world.

It’s been one year.

RIP Deb.

Love you.

Dear you,

I love and miss you very much, especially today.

I seriously cannot believe this is happening to me right now.
Tonight is the upset night, the night I’m in shock and can’t believe it.

Tomorrow is when it begins.
I always get even in the end.
Every single person that’s ever hurt me, I’ve gotten even with, even if they don’t know it.
Tomorrow is the beginning of a new era.

Tonight however, I thought the most amazing guy I ever met was special.
Turns out he was just playing me too.

I’m so over this.
But never piss me off.

And he just did.
I’ll get even.
Like I have before.

Sad thing was, I didn’t fall for someone he was pretending to be, I fell in love with him.
And that’s what hurts the most.

So basically I think everyone is falling apart.

I’m in WAY over my head with some of these things

That’s it. I’m crazy.
I’m just done.

I’m done chasing pavements.

Come monday Luke and I will know if we can qualify for the cutest low income apartments ever.

Ah! Excited!

I am utterly confused about my love life to the point where I don’t even want to talk about it.

On the other hand, I might have found a room mate and a place to live next month! Exciting!

And because I’m so stressed out I took extra shifts, look at these hours

Tuesday: 4-CL (6)
Wednesday: 4-VL (5)
Thursday: 4-VL (5)
Friday: 12-VL (10)
Saturday: 12-VL (10)
Sunday: 4-CL (6)
Monday: 4-VL (5)

Plus more…
Yay for picking up thursday and sunday shifts.
When I’m stressed I turn to work or alcohol.
This time, I’m just gonna stick to work and no alcohol.

Fuck the month of August.

Seriously.
Fuck it.

..I think I’m actually heartbroken.
I’ll say it, I love him.

It really is summer 2007 all over again…
Down to the day basically.
Fuck this.
I’m done.

Fuck my life.